It's really funny how you can have your life all planned out and one little thing breaks the dam. I feel like suddenly my problems are spilling out everywhere. I have lived with the two sweetest girls for a little less than a year now. We've been planning on living together next year or months. Yesterday while I was home with my parents I got a call that I wasn't expecting.
Now I realize that I just set that up to be incredibly over dramatic, but that is how I feel right now. My roommate called to tell me that our other roommate just told her that she wasn't going to be able to live with us, much less keep attending the college that we go to. I was so upset. I remembered her talking to me about it briefly that her parents were worried about putting two children through college, but I didn't think too much about it. She never seemed to make a big thing about it. She went home and talked to her parents recently and they told her that she needed to move back home until she got accepted into a nursing program.
I know she didn't do it on purpose by any means, but now my other roommate and I are going to have to scramble to figure out what to do. 2 bedroom apartments are so much more expensive and we don't know if we can find another roommate in time. We have 13 days until we have to tell the leasing office if we are going to stay in our apartment. To add to the problem, I don't have a reliable car, so moving further away from campus isn't really an option for me.
As much as my current roommate and I want to stay together, I'm not really sure what is the best option. I talked things over with my parents since they still help me out with my rent. They are really wanting me to move into an on campus apartment. I agree with them on some aspects. It would be safer, I only have to worry about my part of the rent and never have to worry about a roommate that wont pay, and nobody can argue the convenience factor of the whole thing. I see where they are coming from and how it would be a good idea. It is a little bit more expensive than where I am living now, but at the same time, my rent will most likely be going up if I have to move into a new apartment.
Another option is to try and find another roommate. As much as I want to stay with my current roommate in my current apartment, neither of us know of anyone who needs a roommate or a place to stay. I've put my feelers out and asked around on Facebook and Twitter, I even stretched so far as to post in some of the groups I'm a part of. I want to stay in my apartment, but I also worry that we might get a bad roommate. I don't really want to live with a stranger who might not pay rent, leaving us stuck to cover the gap.
We could always move into a smaller apartment, its only for a year anyways. Unfortunately, our rent would most likely go up, and the apartment we live in now is one of the safest communities in the area. We would be giving up room, safety, and may even be paying more for less. Plus, neither of us know who would be able to cosign on an apartment for us. Both of our families are struggling in this economy just like everyone else. I've even thought about us both moving into a one bedroom apartment to save on cost. It's a good idea, except my roommate has a boyfriend that comes over a lot.
As you can see I've really tried to get creative with my thinking. I don't want to leave my roommate and friend high and dry with no place to live, but I also know that my education comes first. Given a desperate situation, she could drive from her house or her boyfriend's place. I don't have that luxury since my family lives further away. I have to live in the area and I have to live close to campus. We are also under such a time constraint.
Needless to say I didn't sleep very well last night. I was running all the options through my head over and over again. I want to be there for my friend. I never want to hurt her feelings or screw her over. I keep thinking, at what point do you have to focus on yourself? When is it time to be selfish? And is that worth the possibility of harming a friendship?
Well...that's all for me.
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